It sucks, I know.

Made at 2am last night. Got sick of the old one.

For the first time in my life I feel like my future is uncertain. I can't go back to uni cos it starts in a week and it'll take longer than that to get me into a new course.
I haven't been able to find a job all summer so I doubt I'll find one now. Plus staying here, in this house, is not something I want to do.

I thought last year's depression had at last taken a back seat but it looks like it's back in full force now.

Add that to the fact that I am in pain (muscular) and have a swollen throat, and everything looks great.

Stop the world, I want to get off.

[No, not that kind of get off. Pervs.]

I failed my first year at uni. I failed my resits. I gotta redo the year on a different course. I don't want to do a different course and I don't want to redo the year.

But I'm not allowed to drop out either.

This sucks.